a great loss. . .

“Discomfort it temporary. A photo is forever.” ~  Kipling Swehla

today i mourn

the great misfortune of my photos

who have exited this life

to the great external hard drive heaven

where many photos have gone before them

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i knew them intimately

i knew them when they were raw

before they had blossomed into a jpeg

before the bloom of color 

or the monochromatic of black and white

enhanced their beauty 

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i knew them before. . . 

before they were cropped

or boosted, or textured 

or written about 

i knew them when. . . 

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so today i lament their loss

understanding 

that while i have most of them on cd's

it will not be the same relationship 

it will not be as deep 

or as complicate

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but after all 

i am a grown woman

and so after a few tears

and several panicked phone calls 

and a few text messages 

to him yesterday

i vow to move on

and so i have 

tonight there might be wine

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he has not given up on it, even though we have had two expert opinions. i am glad i made the cd's and now am looking into the clouds for some secure backup. i hear they will do it while you sleep. which i didn't get much of last night after discovering this. and i am sure he is tired of me asking him about it. 

i love you dear. . .  if you are reading this. 

xxoo