Over the past year or so I have immersed myself in photography. I read about it in books I check out from the library or buy on Amazon.com. I spend hours pouring over photos online and in books. And most importantly I practice every day with my camera. I play with shutter speed, white balance, ISO and aperture. I take photos of everything. And looking back though my flickr pool or my 365 project tells a story of my daily life. I find that I am drawn towards simple photos, photos of life's daily moments. And while there is nothing as breathtaking as a beautiful sunset, or a close up of a heron taking flight, I find myself getting just as excited over the way the light falls across the dinning room chair or my coffee cup each morning. But what astonishes me the most is that I can't seem to stop. It is pull in me that I have only read about in others. It is a need. And suddenly people are calling me creative and this is just blowing me away!
What I am striving for now is the fine tuning of it all. A longing to connect with my craft by working more deliberately and with intention and not relying upon chance as much. And while I have made good strides towards creating art with my camera, I am at times, missing the sincerity of connection.
Joy talks about not being the fastest and also about how we often take action when no action is necessary. Boy did these points both speak to me. So I am striving for two goals here: slowing down enough to allow the creative process to come, when my mind is surging with ideas, and stepping back some from social media and that overwhelming urge to hit that "like" button, over and over. St Francis de Sales said, "It is far better to do a few things well than to undertake many good works and leave them half done."
In my old life I was a teacher/homeschooling consultant. I would have a new homeschooling parent come in and check out several curriculum books from our library, take them home and pour over them and not do one thing with their child because they didn't know where to start. I would tell them to bring the books back, choose one and start. Just start. Let the process happen. Now it is time to take my own advice.
A few days ago I pulled everything off my shelves I own and took an inventory. You can see where my heart lies. I have not finished any of these books, but rather tired to do them all. So I choose just a couple to focus on for right now. And I am going to work on taking it slow, and not worry so much about learning it all at once, because that takes away from the creative process. I am going to try and focus more on the process rather than the end product. Take real time to reflect and consider and be more deliberate. I am going to spend time listening to the trees, tasting the wind and watching the season's change more slowing and with intention, rather than hurrying through it and trying to capture everything. I am hoping to learn to open myself up to the creative process a bit slower, leaning how to fine tune my practice and with that, gain some deeper meaning and insight into myself, my art and my life.
This was taken a few days ago and if you could see the clock you would know it was 11:54am and he was still not up. I told you he slept in.
thank you for all the birthday wishes for both jordan and me,
i did get to talk with him briefly late last night!