Here I write and try to capture my everyday life even when it is blurry and unclear. I love simple things like sun flares and snowflakes, walks on the beach and people around my table; where you will always find candle light, laughter and flowers. Welcome to my blog and my corner of the world.
I am glad you are here.
He and I spend a
lot of time now talking about what will come next. What the next chapter of our
lives hold. The past seems almost too easy now; we had kids. The map was drawn,
the path maybe not so clear, but we both knew what the final destination was
and we worked together to get us there.
We stuck to the back roads mostly, choosing a pretty simple life. Working hard to teach out kids good morals and a sense of family. But there were times when we were forced to travel down superhighways, and we had to really work together, pulling off to focus, or we knew we would crash. Making hard choices.
We talk now about
that road and think. . . wow it was a
grand ride. Both of us doing exactly what we wanted to do, both of us working towards
that final goal, and proud and happy today with the results and sacrifices we both
made to get us here. We have not forgotten the times we got lost, or caught up in bad traffic. We have not forgotten the times that we had to stop and back up,
turn around, or just plain wait it out for the fog to lift and the road to open
up again. Or the times that we had to just abandon a road altogether and search for a different one.
But now what we
wonder? Now the road is not so clear. We talk late into the night about the possibilities,
throwing out ideas; pondering what new roads we want to travel. And man it is
hard. Hard because we are not really sure. We know what we don’t want to do,
but have no finale destination in mind now for this next chapter.
I fret some, worrying
about wasting time, getting lost on some rutted road full of boulders, with no road-signs or directions out. But then he will say to me, would that really be so bad, as long as we
are together? And he reminds me that sometimes the back roads have more to
offer and getting lost is really not so bad because with no clear destination
in mind, you are forced to open yourself up to the wonders of what you might
find along that road. He is good with maps,
and we have proven we work well together. So we will take the next year or so to get
ourselves packed and ready because it is our time now. The next chapter is coming and maybe I don't need to be as ready as I think. Maybe I just need to be willing to go.
it is glorious here today, hope your day is a good one, xoxo